The Past Two Days' Musings

10/30/07 3:57 pm Boss Man is gone for the day, and Darla, too, so I'm all alone out here. Steve called to say he was getting over a migraine, so we won't be going to Mike's tonight. I'm taking the bus home while he cooks dinner. He's cooking what we were going to have tomorrow. [A cheese rice casserole with broccoli and turkey kielbasa]

10/30/07 Sunday night I did a few exercises with weights. I haven't picked up a weight in months. So I was very surprised when I was not sore yesterday morning. However, in the car on the way home, I reached out to rub Steve's back, and - Oh! Sore muscles!

10/30/07 It took nearly 24 hours for the soreness to arrive. This morning I was thinking:  of the image I sketched in Misery. I'm tired. I can't draw when I'm tired. [Misery = Missouri]

10/30/07 4:16 pm I just emailed Steve: Go to NYT and read Paul Krugman. He replied: The boogie men of 9/11 are coming. Repent and vote GOP.

10/30/07 5:05 pm At U Str. Just missed a train. I can't draw this way. [U Street Metro Station]

10/30/07 7:57 pm I have been so tired today. Really sleepy. When I got home, Steve said I was restless last night. I was shoving him again. I've done nothing this evening but sit on the couch under a blanket, shivering.

10/30/07 Watching Emeril's Halloween show. And reading the Serenity Roleplaying Book.

10/30/07 Last night I read through the Battlestar Galactica roleplaying book. The only thing I accomplished for my secondary character was reading the Dictionary of Classical Mythology for her name and choosing her colony. My primary character is the CAG.

10/30/07 I'm going to take two Pamprin. I still have no idea why I'm not sleeping well these days. The White Painting isn't working all the time. [A few weeks ago, while falling asleep, I was trying to shut off my Left Brain. I imagined myself in an art gallery, looking at a painting of a white circle on a white background. It worked for awhile. I bought some small stretcher bars and stretched a canvas to paint white and hang on the wall in the bedroom; there's already a small nail that's been there since we moved in. Haven't done that yet.]

10/31/07 Halloween! 6:56 am I'm on the bus. I worked out this morning, and still made the early bus. Do you believe it?! I was going to wear my brown pants and black shirt today, so I can wear my Jack-o-lantern necklace.

10/31/07 The pants are too tight! Not like: Oh, my, this could be uncomfortable all day, but: OMIGOD! WHAT HAPPENED?! I CANNOT ZIP THEM UP! I had already put on my brown socks, then white athletic socks (to wear w/sneakers on my commute).

10/31/07 So the light blue pants would have looked stupid, and I didn't have time to completely change. So I'm wearing my greenish khakis. Technically against Dress Code, but who cares. God!

10/31/07 Last night I was flipping channels and PBS had on a show that looked like it was following several people who were training for the Boston Marathon. Some of them were overweight. One woman had lost 45 lbs. Then stalled.

10/31/07 The - trainer? I guess? - said you would think all the running would result in weight loss, but even a full marathon doesn't burn as many calories as you would think. She said, "For fat loss, diet still trumps exercise."

10/31/07 So that explains all my YEARS of exercising with no weight loss. I was still eating too much. Even in Misery, when I was trying to stay on W.W. and I was walking/jogging for AN HOUR each morning. No weight loss. [W.W. = Weight Watchers]

10/31/07 My brown pants, BTW, are a size 16. The rest of my clothes are an 18. I was hoping to shrink into them. - HA! I have to start counting points again, and make sure my snacks are protein (like cheese and nuts) and not carbs.

10/31/07 Pretzels, and even Whole Grain Goldfish Crackers make me want to eat like a horse. Cracker Cuts are 1 point each. Almonds are 11=2. I don't care if I get sick of them! I always struggle over: What do I eat?

10/31/07 I should follow the recommendation of the "You: On a Diet" book and eat the same thing all the time. I have to do something or this is going to drive me insane! Cows. Chillin. In the dawn. The sun is just coming up.

10/31/07 On the green train now. The lake in the park had foggy mist all over it. The ducks were chillin' in groups. And, I think I saw a Heron! Standing on a structure in the lake.

10/31/07 And, earlier, on the bus, Little Cows were chillin' too! 11:05 am Well, the Diet is not starting today. When I got to work, my blood sugar just plummeted.

10/31/07 I had to get a Snickers Bar out of the vending machine! And a pack of stale Fig Newtons. And I ate the cheese slices from yesterday that I left in our little fridge by my office. Yeesh. One day Cheerios for breakfast is fine, the next day it's not. I wonder if it's because I took Pamprin?

10/31/07 3:08 pm Okay, I am just behaving shamelessly now. At lunch I went to Whole Foods. Steve requested some salt and pepper Kettle Chips. I got a big bag. I also got a small bag of their Buffalo Bleu chips. I just tore into them. My GOD. Salty. Greasy.

10/31/07 I ate most of the bag. I tossed the rest. A crumb dropped on my notepad and made an orange stain. I did not get a bakery cookie at Whole Foods because we're having a Cider and Donut thing this afternoon. When I have a big blood sugar crash, I am messed up for the day.

10/31/07 I think I have to go low carb. I was searching online and found a NYT article from 2002 called "What if It's All Been a Big Fat Lie?" by Gary Taubes. They're just now telling us that low fat diets don't work. Bah.