Change is hard.
I know I'm stating the obvious, but since I have been trying to change many things in my life and I seem to be having trouble actually making the changes happen, it's not really obvious just how hard it is.
Amanda Palmer told a story/metaphor in her new book The Art of Asking - it's kind of a joke. And I don't have my Kindle in front of me so I can't look it up, but it was about a dog on a porch whining because he was sitting on a nail. And when the person asked the owner why the dog wouldn't just get up, the owner replied, "It doesn't hurt enough yet." Amanda then goes on to use that metaphor in context of her getting over her reticence to ask others (the point of the book). I highly recommend the book, by the way, but this is not a book review blog post.
I have grown tired of wanting to change many things. Being overweight. Yet why do I still consume ice cream? Living in the state of Indiana. But we have no opportunity to leave yet, nor any money, Speaking of which, our living-on-the-edge financial situation, which hasn't been helped by shit jobs here in Indiana.
I have been doing the Martha Beck exercises diligently but maybe there's just something I am missing. I am trying to figure it out. I am getting to the point where the nail hurts enough and I have to get off of it.